It may be kinda of okay eventually, People
Okay-ish. Maybe.
I’m surprised and concerned that my brain wants to believe it may be okay. In the now, it doesn’t seem any different. In the then it was awful. In the maybe it seems like it might be okay. Ish. I don’t know. My brain wants to hang onto something and I think it’s just relieved it isn’t terror. In my present I am not experiencing terror. Wait…
I see people getting vaccinated. I hear about millions. I see the shift in policy regarding opening things up. I see these fits and starts. I hear about millions who won't get vaccinated. I don’t know why. We had polio, mumps, measles, smallpox and now we don’t. What about the Stupid Virus? It seems the most resistant to treatment. So many humans let their brains be infected with the Stupid Virus in the name of ‘freedom.’ Is freedom stupidity? Maybe I don’t understand the concept of freedom because I’m not dumb enough.
The meditation I have been doing daily for months now seems to be having an impact on my sleep. I sleep deeper. I dream harder. I still get up to pee, a lot. I guess that's outside of the purview of meditation. The concept of being present is starting to make sense. The tool of getting there is starting to work more frequently. The power of that tool to stop terror and panic and sad nostalgia and future tripping is real. What to do with this deeper understanding that it’s all within not without? You are the regulator of you. Own it or be owned.
I smoked my first brisket. I did some research. Acknowledged my limitations re: equipment and experience. I focused and figured it out. Bought a four-pounder, rubbed it down with equal parts salt and pepper, not too thick, set the Traeger at 225 "super smoke," put a small tray of water in there, after letting the meat brine a bit in the fridge took it out for an hour, put it in the smoker, fat side down, next to the tray, put the thermometer in it, let smoke for like 6-7 hours, when the temperature hit 170 I sprayed it with a little apple cider vinegar, wrapped in foil, turned the heat to 250, stuck the thermometer back in, when it hit 200, took it out, let it sit an hour, sliced it. Solid smoke ring!
Boom. BBQ. Moist. Tender. Tasty.
Today I talk to Lorraine Newman about the first season of SNL and a life in the voiceover racket. On Thursday I get schooled on Armenia by Serj Tankian from System of a Down. Good talks!
Enjoy!
Boomer, Monkey and LaFonda live!
Love,
Maron