I’m out, Folks.
I moved everything out of the garage into the new garage. It’s an odd feeling.
Odd is a broad word for a lot of feelings I’m having about the move. Some of them are just now starting to happen. I woke up in the middle of the night feeling alone and like I was lost somehow. In this flurry of transition, I’m not sure that I really took into mind just how much that garage was part of me. Just how second nature it was to be in there. It was complete symbiosis. We grew together. We were inseparable. Certainly, in the public’s eye, but also in life. Everything that I am now was somehow informed by that space.
I know it seems like I’ve been talking about it a lot but now it is really done and I guess I’m in a bit of shock. Look, I chose it and I’m happy I did but now I’m feeling it. Ryan Singer and I spent the day boxing up stuff and doing five or six trips to and from the new place. We loaded the books (I kept almost all of them) and book shelves into a rented pick up and did it. I wanted my hands on this move. All of it.
I set up the table and attached the booms. I set up the mics, mixer, hard drive and hooked up the monitor. I did a sound and equipment check and tried not to freak out. It felt good, new, exciting. I love the new space.
Then came the feeling of loss and weirdness. There is some part of me that really is not comfortable with change. I was in that old house for more than 13 years. That may not seem like a long time but it really is. A house becomes an extension of you. Part of your being. A haven. A home. A friend. A familiar. I guess no matter how slow I made the transition or how much I love my new place I’m going to feel a little heartbroken and lost for a bit. A little fragile. A little raw. That place was a big part of who I am and now I have to compartmentalize that somehow.
Compartmentalizing is not my strong suit but I think it’s okay to feel the way I feel. It’s going to take however long it takes to build a relationship with my new place. It will be awkward at first as we learn to understand each other but we will settle in. I do find some solace in the fact that I felt like it was time to go for many reasons. No matter how hard part of my brain wants me to believe I should’ve stayed there forever I know in my heart it was the right thing. We had a good run, me and that garage. It was time for both of us to move on.
Today on the show I talk to Neil Patrick Harris about a lot of things. He’s a solid guy. It was great talking to him. I also spend a little time with Michael Imperioli talking about his new novel which is really quite dark and quite sweet. It’s a perfect balance. It’s a coming of age of story that takes place in NYC in the 70s and Lou Reed is a character in the book. It’s good read. On Thursday I talk to Jason Alexander and he is exactly how you think he is which is rare but good. Sweet guy.